Gaia Community: Nina's Blog

I really worked hard for this one:

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 22:36:47 GMT

www.nina-ea.com

I really don't like paying taxes, and I found a LEGAL way to do it.

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Bed & Breakfast on the Big Island

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 21:27:22 GMT

A good friend of mine has a Bed & Breakfast in Waimea (on the Big Island). It's a pretty nice place (and cheaper than many other places I have seen). Contact me for more pictures and information:

At The Rainbow Vacation Cottage

Cozy vacation studio in garden setting and in most affordable vicinity to the splendid Kohala Coast's white sand beaches and coves.

The Kohala Coast, indigenous with Waimea/Kamuela is THE best coast on the island. Situated at picturesque Waimea's "Sunny Side", it has perfect temperature levels day or night.
Mauna Kea and observatories can be seen from the large yard, and horseback rides with vast ocean views are right up the road.

This pleasantly furnished vacation condo is self-contained and always impeccably maintained. Enter through an enclosed and richly foliaged private patio, which lends itself to peaceful breakfasts. Well equipped kitchen with some complimentary provisions. The bedroom sleeps two and opens to the living room with (sleep) couch (option of extra family member for $20/night)

Guests often speak of an "at home" feeling! On parle francais, man spricht deutsch, and of course english as well.

Amenities Inside

Well equipped kitchen with some complimentary provisions, private phone line (local calls free), VCR, private patio.

Outside. Vis-a-vis: jogging track, pool, running brook.

Surrounding Area

Nearby white sand beaches - secluded, or luxurious, - among them the "most beautiful in the US" (so elected by travel channel); horseback rides with ocean-views; renowned golf courses; dolphin-quest; Parker Ranch with museum and wagon tour; Mauna Kea Observatory(13,600 ft.); helicopter flights over an active volcano; sacred Hawaiian sites and petroglyphs; fishing, scuba and sunset cruises; whale watching by day; Manta Ray watching at night; spectacular hiking into remote valleys and to hidden waterfalls!

Price Range: $95 - $125/night

* Hawaii state tax applies
* A 50% DEPOSIT is required to hold your Reservation.
Cancellation Policy: On extended stays, cancellations/changes need to be received within 5 weeks prior to the scheduled arrival date for a 90% refund for the whole term.

Tags: Hawaii, holiday, sunshine, beach, relaxation, enjoy living

Taxes: Deduct This!

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 17:29:00 GMT

This is funny.......

I began teaching fitness classes in French when I wasn't really able to speak very well French (I ended up telling my students not to do what I say, but only do what I do)

I speak pretty well English but still when I began teaching fitness in English, I kept saying all the terms and figures in French (and I told them the same thing as I said before in French; don't do what I say, only do what I do)

I always loved teaching.

This time it's different. I will no longer teach in sport, but in the American Tax Code (I didn't know that words/terms like "Generation-Skipping-Transfer" or "Viatical Settlement" even existed before I began my American Tax studies...)

Here is what I offer:

http://www.waimeaeducation.com/classes/?c=business

Anybody want to join us?

Tags: Taxes, Teaching, Money, Savings, Rules, Guidelines, Structure, USA

Frederic Sauvage

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 02:37:10 GMT

Fred is a good friend of mine I have known for many years (he wasn't that big when I first met him!). He is French and an extremely charming and nice young man. He is also participating in a big Body Building competition in Tampa, Florida this Friday.

All the best luck to you Fred!!! (tu sais que je t'adore!)

Tags: Discipline, Strength, determination, challenges

New Website

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Sat, 10 May 2008 00:06:07 GMT

This website just opened today May 9 2008.

https://nina.courtyardmarket.com/

It's pretty funny because I have been professionally working in the world of fitness for almost 10 years, but until now everything has been restricted to Europe. This is the first time I have an American based website.
Courtyard Market is a really great company with healthy and effective products. I am really happy and proud of being on their side.

Tags: Health, Nature, Beauty, Relaxation, Training, Knowledge, Nutrition, Books, Exercise

Koa Ring with inlayed Gold

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 01:26:00 GMT

This entry goes along with the entry I posted just before.

Here is the ring with Hawaiian Koa Wood Inlayed Titanium Ring w/ 14kt Gold (Green Gold, Rose Gold, Yellow Gold or White Gold)

Tags: Koa, ring, wood, pure, Nature, Strong, Titanium, Gold, Beauty, Energy

Koa Rings from Hawai'i

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 01:21:43 GMT

A friend of mine makes those rings and I think that THEY ARE EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL! He makes all different sizes and shapes, and he puts lots of time, love and energy into the making.

Hawaiian Koa Wood Inlayed Titanium Ring
Hawaiian Koa Wood Inlayed Titanium Ring w/ 14kt Gold (Green Gold, Rose Gold, Yellow Gold or White Gold)

Hawaiian Koa wood is complimented by inlays of 14kt green gold set in a titanium ring.

Titanium is a natural element that is non-allergenic as well as extremely light and durable. Used by ancient Hawaiians to build canoes and surfboards, Koa is one of the Earth's most rare and valuable woods found only in the mountains of Hawaii. Koa inlays are treated to be water and UV resistant. These elements are brought together to make a truly beautiful Hawaiian ring. Made with aloha from the mountains of Hawaii. Each ring is unique and handmade to order. All sizes available.

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Each ring costs between $250-$350 and you can expect 4-6 weeks for delivery. If you like them, please feel free to contact me.

Tags: Hawaii, beatiful, art work, gold, wood, koa, rings, nature, love, pure

In the Flow

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Thu, 17 May 2007 19:32:29 GMT

I'm still here and I'm still full of dreams, thoughts, words and wonders. I'm in the nature, feeling the sky and the vibrating Earth, and my entire being is happily dissolved into the surroundings. Everything feels so immensily right and I'm full of joy and trustfully flying with love on my wings.

I haven't been writing on my blog and the reason is that I'm back with more power and flow writing a new book. This book is in English (so I'll be able to share it all with you!) and with this speed I'm experiencing right now, it'll be written faster than the shadow of Lucky Luke.....

Thank you everybody for being there. I LOVE YOU!

Tags: Flow, love, light, creation, writing, words, sharing, joy, energy

An Early Morning Ecstasy

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Fri, 04 May 2007 18:47:31 GMT

I run before the sun gets up.... I'm half awake from a night full of dreams, thoughts, hope and love, and slowly massaging my body by putting on tight running shorts and T-shirt seems like a continuity of a vivid astro projection throughout the universe.

I gratefully drink a big glass of water, maybe a light protein shake and jump outside. The dark sky welcomes me, the fresh air flows deep down into my internal being and I smile, "Thank you, I love you, thank you so much!" I can hear the birds sing the music of a new glorious day and the rattle of the leaves in the wind whispers magical secrets from the night. The moon is still observing us proudly from above and the stars look happy in peace and harmony with the spin.

I spread my arms wide open, breathe deeply, feeling the air expanding my lungs and off I go. I run in the mountains. The roads are narrow, the fall is steep and the incline makes my thighs tense and sends shivers out through my body from the Achilles, up through the strong knees, hips, and spine and all the way through to my rosy fingertips. I'm grounded and the gentle repetitive impacts caress the soles of my feet and I feel lucky sensing the breath of Mother Earth. She's alive and her belly raises and lowers with every in- and exhalation like a little child safe in the arms of the embracing mother. Glimmering light is streaming down through my Crown Chakra and its energy and charm makes me blush and giggle of joy and trust. I can feel the aura of my surroundings, the trees are happily flirting with the birds, the branches beat the rhythm of my pace and the smell is sweet and full of life. I feel childlike and I feel free.

The clouds..... Oh the clouds are a world for themselves. Light cotton balls silently flowing on the blue ceiling and inviting the sun to paint one masterpiece after another on their soft beautiful bodies. Amazing fractals are created in front of my nose tip and shiny rays kiss the ocean and leave me round eyed in wonder and grace.

Suddenly everything changes. The colors have jumped a spectrum and the sky has lit up faster than the miles I just left behind. I can hear a cow having a conversation with her offspring and I turn around now running towards this early morning's starting point. I'm running towards a little green house in the mountains with the fresh flowing water and magic stones in every corner, and an incredible 3 floor tall crisping crackling bamboo as guardian angel.

This place is full of wonder and I'm spellbound by its power and charm. I feel safe and I feel light and warm. I breathe, touch and create. I suddenly feel in tune with myself and the universe, everything seems perfect and I'm full of trust and love. The sensations and colors are stronger than ever and tears run down my cheeks.

We are and everything is just so amazing incredible wonderful!....

Tags: Sun, dreams, hope, love, air, birds, freedom, light, ecstasy, blush, giggle

Oriah

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Tue, 01 May 2007 01:09:41 GMT

Beautiful words from a beautiful woman.

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The Invitation

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes."

It doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

Tags: Life, challenges, truth, dreams, love, faith, joy, beauty

It's as Exciting as We want It to Be

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Fri, 27 Apr 2007 17:24:54 GMT

What happens when we get attached to things? When we get attached to our peculiar state of mind, our given mood, our feelings or things, ideas and possessions... But even worse is it when we get attached to how we want/think/wish the other person should (could would) behave and be. We somehow expect the person (and our surroundings) to be in a certain way, always, period. No surprises, no confusion, no fear.

Maybe we met our shiny sweetheart in a bar and the swinging surroundings where covered in the embrace of soft tunes (or Oldies Goldie's), everybody all dressed up in sexy and encouraging outfits, cowboy boots and clean jeans, red lipstick, hair gel, and of course a clean shave and the perfect smile go with the rest. A beer in one hand, maybe a cigarette or a spinning hair lock in the other, looking at pretty girls or strong handsome shoulders and letting the entire breeze of the night life caress our mind and bodies.

That's how we meet, -in that specific state of mind. Now what happens later? The couple is in love, the sex is great, the discovery of each other is even greater and the wave of brain chemicals makes them constantly high on love (with the unavoidable silly grin stuck on the face). What happens when the every day routine comes knocking on the door? The bad hair days, the monthly grumpiness with the corresponding hormonal roller coaster trips, the missing arm pit shave, smelly socks (with holes), demanding colleagues at work, paper bills to be paid, weekly soccer/beer game with the dudes, kids to fetch at school, where are we!?

What happened to the sweet "bar ambiance", this special dreamlike easy going impulsive and fun state of being we had when we met the first time? The excitement of something "NEW". We want it back! "It was so good, then".... "I wish we could turn back time, rewind the tape, have fun, enjoy and discover again".

Attachments.... Living in the past.... And suddenly the present becomes tough.

Attachment to our Ego, attachment to our thoughts, to how we think the world is, our personal point of view, our mental screen showing us the latest movie of THE perfect world.

"She is use to be like that (so that's how I want her to be now -or maybe I really would like her to be different, but of course she isn't....)" or "I feel safe in this routine". What are we attached to? To something that seems to be stable (even when it creates boredom or pain)?

Stableness is a pretty big illusion....... Sticks in the wheels, volcanic rocks carried around in our shoes, a narrow space dragging us down and WHO does all this? Who is responsible? We are... Us. Nobody else. We are the one who gets attached to the outcome, get attached to the past and what seems like just has been.

Of course we learn from our past, our experiences, our climbs and falls but that's exactly what and where we should be; in the learning. Constantly, never ending, eternal journey of new experiences, an always complete recreation of our thoughts and emotions in every given moment and possible breath. We recreate ourselves (or we get recreated?). That's our flow, that's life. Maybe we should stop thinking and just let it go and start to enjoy the ride?......

Let's live.

Tags: Excitement, action, trust, light, love, desire, courage, challenge, wonderful, recreation, let go

Dancing World of Hawai'i

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Sun, 22 Apr 2007 03:59:39 GMT

The energy here is different. Now I understand why some people say that Hawai'i is like being on another planet, why it's so different from the mainland. Now that I'm so lucky to experience it, I can say, Yes, it really is different here.

It's not only the great food, the beautiful flowers, the strong voiced coqui frogs, hot volcanoes, splashing water falls, soft beaches, big turtles and amazing sun rises but also the people. The people here seem so much more sincere. No, they are not more intelligent or even more spiritually developed than others but somehow they all seem to be so much more true to themselves....

When you meet somebody you know exactly how she or he feels because that's not only what the person's body language tells you but that's what they say and do. It's really nice and it makes you become even more true to yourself as well. You naturally become more connected and loving.

Last night I was at a poetry reading. Hawaiian inspired poetry that included Aloha hula dancing lyrics, barefooted long bearded men, beautifully tanned women caressing their curves in colorful sarongs, all different kind of multi material art work on every wall and ceiling, and singing people playing vibrating instruments and joining into the sound of the hot and typical local known beats. Hmmmm... banjos, violins, guitars, drums, percussion, bass and piano...... Happy people, happy rhythm, happy life. The doors were open and the Hilo weather rained down perfectly in tune with the embrace of the music.

We sat on wood chairs and after a while it became too hard to sit still so we left and drove to another joyful place called "the Paradise". And it was. Local people, all looking cool and satisfied about this (rainy) Friday night, cold beers in their hands, and laughing in this precise moment of their lifetime. The Now was filled with beautiful women and smiling men.

I'm a total dance-o-mania and of course I immediately got attracted to the dance floor, and for the next couple of hours the only existing world was the dimension of movement, play, laughter and the sharing of physical joy with an exciting fellow crowd on a shiny dance floor. Everything moved; feet, legs, hips, waist, shoulders, fingers, arms, head..... Playing, feeling, expanding, buzzing, sharing, shaking, laughing, twisting, jumping, singing and living. Everything was there in that single moment. Everything that's worth living for, that makes everything so intense, beautiful and full of desire and transformation. The Flow.

How much more intense everything would be if we just could learn how to really enjoy every single moment we have. If we could live in the moment, feel the experience and learn from whatever thing and situation we are in. The Now of this whatever it is, wherever we are and come what may.

I ended the evening quietly on my couch, eating a delicious papaya, fascinated by its soft meat, orange/red color and sweet strawberry like scent, filling my senses and humming me to sleep. Soon I was happy crawling into bed, comfortable between clean sheets, Polynesian sarong caressing my throat, pillow gentle squeezed against the chest and a happy tired smile on my lips. Wonderful day, wonderful night, wonderful life, Aloha auinapo....

Tags: Hawaii, beautiful, true, free, natural, inspiration, artists, creation, sharing, love, light

A Rainy Lovestory

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Tue, 17 Apr 2007 15:47:20 GMT

It's 4.30am and I'm sitting in the dark looking out at the strong rain. Tropical rain. You know that kind of rain carrying this sweet smell and you feel sticky all over but not cold. Do you think that the rain falls randomly?... Or does it follow some kind of system?... Probably a system that we human beings have glued on to try to make it fit what we think it is or could-should-would be....... We love to do things like that.

The rain just falls. Well that's what it seems to do and furthermore it seems to be doing its job quite successfully since it has been raining for hours and not just a little bit but a LOT! Transparent liquid pouring down from the sky watering the Earth, plants and makes the Coqui frogs dance and sing in true joy and happiness. If we don't want to be wet we can just stay inside or use another sort of shelter. Our choice, the rain doesn't seem to care much about our personal opinion anyway so why not choose to stay happy?

I went for a long bike trip yesterday and almost the second after I left the safe inside and was now free under the wonders of the humorous sky, the rain began. I stopped under a tree, looked up and said, "ok it doesn't matter that you'll make me wet as long as you'll dry me as well". And it did.... I had rain and thunder and then wind and even some sun and when I finally was back home after a couple of hours of biking, I was all dry and red cheeked feeling fresh and happily exhausted.

The sky has some kind of reddish flair to it this morning. A chick and sexy dash that makes it flirt with the Earth. I bet it does. Flirt. Maybe the Earth likes to wear different color coats once in a while and to be cool and friendly the sky creates different flavors to suit her sweet taste. And of course other times the Earth colors the sky......... They embrace and they love.

I saw three HUGE turtles the other day, an early quiet morning. Well two big and a smaller one. I have never before seen so big turtles free. They were swimming in circles, minding their own business, sticking their beautiful heads up to breathe once in a while and looking oh so peaceful and true. I sat on the rock next to them for a loooong time and just watched..... A connection was created and I could feel the sensation of gliding under the tempered water, the contact with the loose and hard rocks, the pressure of the stream, the gentle motion of the head, the graceful turns and that they could see and feel me too. I loved them and they loved me back. So easy to love and so amazing.

Everything is so easy when we do it. What make things become so incredible complicated are the thought processes we have before. If we just did things, things which are good for us (which means that they are good for you and me too) then everything would be so much more peaceful.

Have you ever noticed how incredible soft the water looks when it caresses the stones and sand on the beach? It looks like velvet and love..... I guess that's what they do, love. Even when the rain travels down through the air, hard and full of vigor and excitement. For us it looks like the drops are slamming against the waves but for the ocean it must feel like a HUGE tickling game and its enormous laughter will soon be heard and the dolphins and whales jump in joy as overcharged with energy and life.

I feel so lucky. So immensely incredible awesomely GRATEFUL of being able to experience all those things. Life, Love, Laughter, Light -the four L. I was told that one from somebody I love and he's right. That's what everything is made of. So simple.....

Tags: Rain, night, silence, coquis, beauty, nature, love, thunder, excitement, action, turtles

And the Winner Is......

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Mon, 16 Apr 2007 06:31:08 GMT

I'm experiencing a minor challenge here........ First I thought that it wouldn't be something really to worry about but now it has turned into a bigger dimension than I possible could imagine.

I am being chased......

I'm being seriously harassed by hairy little monsters, buzzing flying creatures that are also crawling, biting, stinging... Tiny freaks chasing me in every existing corner, room, direction, outdoor, indoor and I've turned into a non stop eternal never ending pincushion! Arrrghh!!

A Buddhist Zen friend told me to send them love and understanding so I decided to try his advice and instead of applauding the mosquitoes (hand clapping!) I instead gently waved them away and even told them that they could take a sip of my blood as long as they didn't hurt me or leave any dreaded venom.

That didn't work...

Then I bought some citronella incense but that wasn't enough to keep them away either and after a really unmerciful right-at-sunset attack I went straight to the local supermarket fast determined to buy whatever needed to keep the little darn blood suckers away from my poor aching skin. Unfortunately the only thing I found on the supermarket shelves seemed even worse than the mosquitoes themselves; "risk of allergy, don't use on animals or children, don't get near food or water, rinse your eyes if contact, wash your hands....." Hhmmmmmm it didn't really sound like a very attracting idea to roll myself in for everyday for the next 1 ½ month! At least if I didn't want to get high on chemicals..... So instead I went to the health food store and there I found various essential oils with mosquito repellent and even a soap called "bug-off!"

Back at home, I washed and sprayed myself from top to toe with the new bought products, sat down with a happy sigh, turned on the computer to answer an e-mail or two and then bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzt! Directly on my right leg. Arrrrrggghhh!!

I jumped up feeling truly frustrated, miserable and horrible feeling of defeat and honest discomfort, and as shiny glaze on the carrot cake; an observing friend sitting in the other corner of the room, sweetly said the words "hmmm Nina, maybe you should just surrender to the bugs, eh?".........

Thoughts like "people who annoy you are our best teachers" and "what triggers your temper is always a great lesson" popped up inside my head but my mouth turned upside down and I yelled, "if you don't have anything better to say then I reeeaally prefer you to BE QUIET!!" (btw he's happy to have me around since then HE doesn't get attacked by the mosquitoes).

Conclusion is that I need to find a solution or my stay on this beautiful island will turn into a buzzing nightmare.

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It's now one day after and the bug-off! spray and soap seems to have calmed down my attackers a bit. Furthermore I have now ordered not one, but three Electronic Mosquito Repellers on the net; one for my hat, one to keep around my tummy and one in my shoes, and da da daaaaa I'll soon be transformed into one big vibrating Dane! Ok, it kinda makes me giggle but as long as it works, I'm happy. Life's too short to be bothered by small things like that (even though they are numerous and persistant!)

Funny how things are sometimes.........

Tags: Buzzing, biting, sucking, chasing, challenge, love, surrender, experience, vibrating, life

A Fascinating Existance!

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Wed, 11 Apr 2007 15:32:50 GMT

I'm fascinated by the word fascination.... I'm captivated, spellbound, enthralled and completely mesmerized by its charm, excitement and temptation. There is something truly amazing with that word, feeling, experience and idea.

What can leave us open mouthed and enticed by fascination? The excitement of the unknown, the sweet desire of a possible well rewarding challenge, and the hint of the sweet taste and glaze on a delicious carrot cake straight from the oven. What can make us stay struck with wonder, motivation and the deep intense desire of "pushing forward" and to go into the unknown with our heads high and arms open. Come what may. What is the cause to the effect?

Does fascination makes us trust? Trust that this is the right direction, the right thing and feeling. This is it! No more doubt or hesitation but trust....

Do we know what we trust? We are fascinated... do we know exactly what makes us feel that way? "She or he makes me fascinated!" Really? Does fascination comes from somebody outside ourselves or is the person, thing or situation just a trigger to the feeling of inner excitement, curiosity, awe and beguile? Like pearls on a thread, a wave on the ocean and a natural response from a high pressure on the top of the scale. Balance....

Is fascination exclusively physical or can it also be used for spiritual development and empowerment? It keeps us focused, our concentration is one-pointed and no abusive thoughts or monkey chatter is jumping around inside our head. Only one thing exists and that's the object of our interest. Past has ceased to exist, the future isn't even an option and the only thing left is the now. Right here, in that moment, time and heart beat.

Nature wonders make us fascinated. I was at this huge water fall the other day, I looked at the powerful movement and got myself completely hypnotized by the continuously falling water, but then I turned around and did something even more intriguing; I sat down and looked at people, their faces, body language and reactions. Wow. Fascination! What is it?

Is fascination a desire, a desire which we don't necessarily wish to own but we simply have the pleasure and desire to observe and be with? Like a mirror that reflects everything without judgment or doubt and doesn't hungry want to grab on and posses.

Let be, enjoy, and let go. Pheeeeeeewwfft! I love it! That I do know and maybe that's the only important thing to feel, the rest is just game play. Let's all play, laugh, have fun and enjoy life. There are so many things (it only depends on what we put our attention to) and life is truly fascinating. How we are able to live, breath, move, think, feel, smile, kiss, love and exists, to be in all this and even to be aware of it is amazing...

Tags: Fascination, wonder, captivation, desire, love, joy, excitement, action, enthralled, life, curiosity

Tropical Freedom

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Sun, 08 Apr 2007 19:52:43 GMT

I'm on a small island. Well not THAT small but still not very big. I thought that maybe that was the place for me truly to calm down, relax and enjoy the silence and wonder of life but almost as soon as I arrived I felt that something was not what I expected. I really do love the island; it's beautiful and the fruit and veggies finally have TASTE. The sun rise and sun sets are truly amazing, I love the sound of the frogs and birds, the tropical smell, the soft wind and the lovely "cooool, man!" people.

I enjoy my work here too. I'm writing and the surroundings are perfect for the flow. Now what is it that tells me that I'm not meant to stay here? I don't know.. It's not that I don't WANT to stay here, it's more that I am meant to do MORE things somewhere else. I still got things to do, it's not time for me to "hide" yet. Funny thing...

What is this thing with people feeling trapped in spite of physical freedom? And how come other people feel free and eternal growing in spite of closed and narrow surroundings? Hmmm. What is freedom anyway? We can talk about physical freedom using a straight logical explanation but what is mental freedom, spiritual freedom, psychological freedom? Another one of those feelings you cannot really explain or grab onto no matter how much you try. It's just there. Or it isn't....

I'm happy to be here. I'm happy of experiencing the sweet taste of tropical excitement. Everywhere I look I see beauty and all my senses are full of colours, breezes and papaya. I run in the mornings while the sun is caressing the sky with its first wonderful rays, I do Yoga with the sight of soft waves against the cooled down lava, my food is crunchy and fresh and my fingers work hard on the keyboard writing wonderful words while lizards are keeping me company (and protecting me from the mosquitos!).

How incredible wonderful life is. So beautiful, so simple; so amazingly stunning!

Tags: Tropical, wonder, freedom, joy, life, light, sun, amazing, to be, creation, sharing

We are Nature

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Wed, 04 Apr 2007 15:34:43 GMT

I have been flowing IN the middle of Nature for the last many days. Actually ever since I crossed the ocean and arrived to the United States.
I had a personalized "farewell" from Europe just before leaving; I got bitten all over by whatever kind of invisible bugs at the London airport during a cold night of waiting and apparently I created an allergic reaction so I went down with another bad cold and an oooooooooohh so itching witching all over the body. No fun but that's the past and it's almost over now.

I have been enjoying Nature and a true pure connection with animals and our surroundings. I have been watching beautiful stars and the stunning full moon without any interference from annoying street lamps, and been listening to the breath of joyful and relaxed horses without the buzzing of traffic or stressed employees.

Wonderful.

My friend Sol is a wonderful photographer and he has taken almost all his pictures at the place I'm now so lucky to experience. You can see some of his amazing pictures here: http://sols.zaadz.com/photos

Later today I'll be flying again. I have a new place to visit and I feel lucky and blessed. We live, we feel, learn and experience. Life is wonderful and everything is possible. Come what may. xxx

Tags: Travelling, nature, truth, silence, sharing, love, wonder, magic, beauty, desire, laughter

Jumping, Kissing, Sharing, Living

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Mon, 26 Mar 2007 07:00:25 GMT

I'm all excited..... I actually think I have been quite calm for the last week here but it suddenly changed yesterday. "I'll be on my way again, what will happen this time?!!"

A stranger told me last night that he is in his fourth reincarnation in this life time and I thought; "cooooool!" That's brilliant! Another friend told me a couple of weeks ago (after I haven't heard from him during several months) that he has changed life completely as well. That's awesome!

I guess for me this is my second time. I've always known -ever since I was a child that I wasn't going to stay in my mother country. I can't really explain why but a feeling told me that this wasn't the right place for me. So as soon as I could I left. My father was going on a trip to Spain the next day and I asked him to set me off somewhere in France (I wanted to learn French) and just before 6am a Saturday morning I stood alone next to a French highway... That was it. I didn't speak French -except "je t'aime", "merci" and "voulez vous couchez avec moi" -which is REALLY not something a young girl would say to a Latin stranger. I was with my suitcase and a cotton hat where I've attached a HUGE sunflower (I love sunflowers). Of course I was scared (as I am now) but I felt HAPPY and oh so free. Freer than I have ever felt before. It was Amazing.

I travelled from city to city looking for I don't know what, experiencing, learning, touching and observing. Living. A brilliant lesson was one of the first nights on a Youth Hostel somewhere in Lyon. I was sitting at a round table writing and looking at people... and feeling totally lonely and miserable. I wanted to share and be with my neighbours (I even saw another young person looking just as sad and lonely) but I was afraid, timid and insecure. So ALONE I sat for hours and alone I felt in my heart and body. Later in my bed I made a decision; "never again". Never again I would do that. Never again I would be too afraid of speaking with strangers, connecting, sharing and learning. We all need to learn somehow.

In a couple of hours I'll be gone again. I have been giving away almost all my belongings, books, clothes, things... and what is left now fits into five small brown boxes. That's it. Nothing more and it makes me smile.... We don't really need all those things. I don't and when the day comes where I need kitchen tools, chairs and blankets I'll buy them.

So this time it's happening again, I'm leaving. Almost 13 years after the first time. So many things have happened in those years. Good things, wonderful things. I have felt, learnt, tried, experienced, cried, danced, laughed and lived. Those years are a part of me just like the now and the future. What will happen now?!!

I'm not wearing any sunflower hat this time (though I have a sun jewel attached to my jacket). Maybe I'm a bit more wise now, I've tried more things, met more people and breathed and shared more air but I'm still the same. I'm still feeling my way through everything. I'm still just as playful, naïve, irrational (as somebody told me yesterday!), spontaneous, childish, crazy and oh so unstoppable curious and hungry about everything and everybody.

I went to a HUGE sand dune yesterday morning at 7am. It was early Sunday morning, it was raining and nobody was there. Only me and my dog. She was happy running and I was happy looking at the incredible ocean, sand dunes and forest. The wind was on my face, I could hear the waves and birds were playing in the sky. I really love that place!

Then my dog ran towards an area with some bushes and small trees and something beautiful made me look at her. Sometimes I can see energy patterns, light and colours around people and things and this time I saw a "bubble" appear around my dog. It made me smile. Then she moved and the "bubble" stayed but then a new bubble immediately turned up where the dog now was busy sniffing. She moved again and again and soon the entire area was FULL of my dog. Amazing. Incredible. She was everywhere! And so are we......... Everywhere we leave, give and share something of us. To everything and everybody. It's marvellous. What are we?

Energy. We are pure energy and light and I'm so happy to be here among you. I'm so happy to be able do experience all those things. We are all together and I love you all so incredible much. Thank you!

I'll be back...

Tags: Excitement, energy, trust, wonderful, amazing, love, light, desire, hopes, dreams, sharing

A smart Bird not knowing its smartness....

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Sat, 24 Mar 2007 07:25:36 GMT

It rained all day yesterday but this early Saturday morning the sky is beeaaautiful and there is a strong wind caressing everything and everybody and bringing smells and feelings from all over the world. I just came back from my morning walk and now my cheeks are red and the brownish long nosed dog is happily snoring in her bed. I was thinking about a subject while walking but then a small bird caught my attention and everything suddenly changed (I was thinking about the subject desire but I'll write about that another day). This little bird was amazing and I realized that in some ways we humans are just so much like them (or they are just so much like us). Some of them are better in flying and go A LOT faster than others.

I didn't see my flock of birds this morning. I thought I saw them out of the corner of my right eye but when I tried to focus they disappeared (like a mirage or a desert hallucination in a desperate search for water) and all what was left was this missile like bird on the sky. It kept its wings folded against its tiny little body and vrrruuuuuuuuuuum it went. Fast. Perfect. Amazing. How does it feel?!

I saw another bird going almost just as fast but at a lower ground level and just before colliding against a garden gate it made a sharp turn to the right and continued its journey. How was it able to avoid the obstacle in such a high speed? My dog does the same thing... Sometimes when we are running in the forest she runs in a VERY fast speed and it has always totally fascinated me how she's able to avoid all the branches, trees and other things flowing in her way, but she does... Like if the awareness of her surroundings gets attuned with the faster speed (when we walk slowly on the street I have seen her bump into street lamps and yesterday morning she accidentally walked into my legs when I stopped looking at something...).

Are we the same? Do we get better and more attentive to what we do when everything is accelerated? Or is it just because we forget to think and then we just do and react to things in an unconscious level. Who watches over us, making us avoid bumping into obstacles? What are we?!

Do we "lose" our abilities of alertness, awareness and higher perception when we get trapped in routines, habitual procedures, methods and set condition of how we live, how we think, act and respond to what we think we see, experience and what we undergo in our daily life and physical being. Do we become like coach potatoes even if we don't have a coach and a neighbouring TV? A state of being...

And a brilliant question; do we have to be physically active to be able to reach this higher awareness? No, I don't think so.... It's not about being able to run 10K in less than 30min or jump from the Eiffel tower with a rubber band tied around your waist, I think it's all about how we chose to live, what sort of thoughts, dreams, hopes and desire we keep inside our hidden diamond box, and the courage to follow the inner voice and trusting that IF we do that, everything will be alright no matter what. To stay alert to why we are here and how we can evolve and live in accordance with the source and higher vibrations. It's there alright... (even though many well documented and logical minds eager to convince us about the opposite).

I stood looking at the little bird and even though I couldn't see its small eyes I knew that everything it felt was in that beautiful flight. All its attention, focus and concentration was in that now, in that exact moment of the flow in the wind, on the sky, in front of my eyes and because that is what the little bird is good at; flying.

Maybe that's what we humans are practising here; living?...

Tags: Sky, wind, colours, desire, air, birds, hallucination, flying, life, light, awareness

James Blunt

http://free2bmore.gaia.com — Fri, 23 Mar 2007 09:36:31 GMT

The song is great but the lyrics are even better. So simple, so genius. By sharing smiles with stranges we share so much more....

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"You're Beautiful"

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high, [ - video/radio edited version]
Fucking high, [ - CD version]
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Tags: Singing, sharing, light, together, life, brilliant, hope, smile, angel, energy, trust